Once again I find myself unable to sleep and I'm exhausted. I have gotten about 12 hours of sleep in 4 days and my mind is starting to wander off on it's own.
I was told once that the word love is too obscure. I can't define it properly, so let's go to google:
1) An intense feeling of deep affection.
2)A person or thing that one loves.
3)Feel a deep romantic or sexual attachment to (someone)
No, that doesn't work for me.
Love is anger. Anger that I can't fix the situation that is deep in your heart. deep in your mind.
Love is sadness. Every time that question is left unanswered. Every time I can't help.
Love is rejection. Refusing to let your darkest shame turn me away.
Love is denial. Giving up everything to complete you.
Love is fear. That you don't want it anymore... Or never did
Love is hatred. That I've let you down.
Love is not always sweetness and light, it's not always affection.. It is not always a deep romantic or sexual attachment. Love is emotion, all emotion wrapped up and wound so tightly around your heart that every beat reminds me to think of you. Wonder how to fix it...
