I hate me

I honestly feel like I spend 100% of my life letting down everyone around me.
I really wish I could just give up,  but I don't even have the strength for that.
Turns out when other people treat me like I'm nothing,  I feel like nothing.
Awesome. I have an idea,  throw another few verbal jabs about how bad I made your life my way. It makes me feel awesome to know how awful my being sick, only sleeping a few hours a night,  working 10-11 hour days, and missing all the good times with my son is making you feel. 
I hate me again.